When I was growing up, I always had a hard time not hating my mother. She always seemed to look for drama, and made herself a martyr whenever possible. I have to give her a lot of respect, though, because since she remarried and had my baby sister, she has grown up a lot.
When I was driving home tonight, the song "Everything to Everyone" by Everclear came on, and at first it made me think of her. The more I listened to it though, I realized it described me more than it did her now, and that scared me a lot, so much that I wrote this...
The Monster I See
The face that stares back at me today
I can't recognize his features at all
Why does he play the role of the martyr now
And how did that face become me
It's the family disease, it runs in my veins
The mother I hated has grown up at last
But the son inherited the sickness
Twisted with personal experience to create a new monster
Facing down my demons tonight
No drugs left to numb the pain
No hand to pull me back this time
Jumping head first into the void
Fed the sickness on apathy and
The blood white cross around my nose
Crushing the last of the child within
Now the only monster I see is me
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