Fear

Wow, you guys are getting way more updates than usual! Don't get used to it, I'm trying to write more so I can get this book ready... It's been kinda freaking me out lately, but I'm trying to not freak anymore, and just enjoy what I'm doing like I used to. Of course, I'm still going to try to keep writing more, but I'm not going to stress out if I can't write one day... That thought line is actually what got this one going, so I guess a little fear can be a good thing! :)

Fear

Nervous anticipation
Looking forward to the day
When this is just a memory

Eagerly awaiting
Try to tell the story right
Try not to wrap the past in lies

But how do I separate the love we had
From the hatred that we hold now
And how do I write about that hot July
Without forgetting where I am today

Unspoken expectations
No one wants to see the hate
God, this better turn out great

Unwritten obligations
Maybe I set my sights too high
Perhaps July was just a lie

But how do I throw away everything
Give my secrets to the world
And how do I show you the torment
Without making my loved ones hurt

Waking nightmare
Breaking off my fingernails
Pulling out all of my hair

Stupid daydreamer
No one wants to read that again
Just keep your pain locked away