Let Down
I guess I let you down again, didn't I?
I fought so hard just to hold on, while I preached to let it go
Locked my heart inside this cage, while singing love is all
It's so damned easy to show the way, why can't I follow it?
It was another time, another place
The fog of memory, I can't even see your face
But the tears in your eyes will haunt me to my grave
I guess I let you down again, doesn't it seem
Like all I do is make amends, hurt my friends
So scared of being hurt again, so scared of ending up numb
Now that I've finally found that love we used to sing about
But I can still see the tears in your eyes
As we sang out to the world, our final goodbyes
Why can't I just let your memory die?
I guess I let you down again, big surprise
I let you go, I have moved on, but sometimes I
Can't help but bring your memory back up, one last time
The pain has healed at last, but some things never die
Thursday, August 31, 2006
Tuesday, August 29, 2006
Blog changes...
Hey everybody! Dr Sketch has been crazy tinkering with the blog settings again, so here is a list of what's new:
Check it out!
- RSS/Atom feed, with subscribe button.
- Copyright/license notice with link (go read it, I tried to leave it as open as possible for ya).
- Switched to BetaBlogger with my gmail account. You won't even notice, trust me.
- Archiving. Sorry, I thought it was on before, but it wasn't! Now there will only be 10 posts visible, the rest is archived on the right...
- Comments. Ok, they aren't really new, but please leave some! I (like most web authors) live for user feedback; good, bad, indifferent, I want to know what you're thinking! If nothing else, just leave one that says "Hey Doc! I was here!"
:)
Check it out!
Monday, August 28, 2006
Slipping Away
Slipping Away
Another year slipping through my grasph
Watching you fade into memories
Do you ever look back and wonder
As you lay dying like the fall
The August heat can't warm my bones
From the chill deep in my soul
Clutching at my heart in a panic attack
Hammering my ribs apart
Can love survive beyond the face of death
Or are our memories all just lies
Scars on my body like punishment
To remind me of where I came from
To keep me looking back as I watch
Another year slipping away
Another year slipping through my grasph
Watching you fade into memories
Do you ever look back and wonder
As you lay dying like the fall
The August heat can't warm my bones
From the chill deep in my soul
Clutching at my heart in a panic attack
Hammering my ribs apart
Can love survive beyond the face of death
Or are our memories all just lies
Scars on my body like punishment
To remind me of where I came from
To keep me looking back as I watch
Another year slipping away
Friday, August 25, 2006
Tiny Update
Well, I don't have much new to report, but didn't want to leave you all hanging either... REWilson is working away on the cover, I finally wrote the last few words (the back of the cover) so I'm done! Everything is formatted the way I want, it's looking good, and I'm moving on... Yep, that's right, I'm starting up writing again! I have really missed it! I'll be putting some new stuff up soon, so stay tuned for more... I hate to ask you to wait longer, but... wait longer. :) The wait for the book will be worth it, and I promise that the next new poem I put up will be one of the best ever! I'm working on something now that will hopefully be as good (or better?) than "Love Song For The Lost" and "Lullabye"! :)
Until then...
Until then...
Thursday, August 17, 2006
Update
Well, so much has happened since the last post, and I'd like to share some of it...
I have been through so many edits that it makes me dizzy! I read through it, changed a lot, removed two poems (they just didn't work, so don't be sad), re-arranged again and again, and finally said "I'm done!" Then I let a couple of my friends read through it (thanks guys!), and had a ton more edits to do... Did you know that "alright" is not a word??? Dammit, I've been using it for years! Thanks for taking away part of my vocabulary, English Language! ;)
I have done all the formatting, and am doing tweaking on it now. So far it looks good! Although it's been quite the pain getting it ready to print! They only have 8 fonts that they support, and the two I'm using aren't on that list, so I had to go through a huge process to embed those fonts into the file that they convert into PDF (the printer uses PDFs, I dunno why). I now know more about PostScript, PDF, and printing than I ever wanted to...
Right after I made my last post (seriously, like within an hour) I got the first draft of the cover, and it looks freaking AMAZING! I had an idea of what it would look like, since we both kinda worked it out together, but it wasn't what I expected, it was WAY better! Have I mentioned to go check out http://www.rewilson.us ? AND HAVE YOU GONE YET???? :D Maybe it's just seeing my name on it (yeah, I have an ego), but I think it's more to do with how cool it is! I can't wait to see the finished one, looking all slick and shiny...
A few people have asked me why I would have to sell so many books to do the Global Distribution; if it's only $99, and I'm making $14/book, I should barely have to sell 8 copies to make it. The truth is, I'm NOT making $14/book, I'm not making very much at all per copy (I'm not going to say how much, but it's less than you think). Most of the price is the cost of publishing it, which is higher since each copy is manually printed. If I was working with a publishing company I'd be making more per copy, but they tend to not want to publish authors that nobody has heard of. Maybe, if this one does good, someone will want to do my next one! :P
Ok, I think that's it... Until next time!
I have been through so many edits that it makes me dizzy! I read through it, changed a lot, removed two poems (they just didn't work, so don't be sad), re-arranged again and again, and finally said "I'm done!" Then I let a couple of my friends read through it (thanks guys!), and had a ton more edits to do... Did you know that "alright" is not a word??? Dammit, I've been using it for years! Thanks for taking away part of my vocabulary, English Language! ;)
I have done all the formatting, and am doing tweaking on it now. So far it looks good! Although it's been quite the pain getting it ready to print! They only have 8 fonts that they support, and the two I'm using aren't on that list, so I had to go through a huge process to embed those fonts into the file that they convert into PDF (the printer uses PDFs, I dunno why). I now know more about PostScript, PDF, and printing than I ever wanted to...
Right after I made my last post (seriously, like within an hour) I got the first draft of the cover, and it looks freaking AMAZING! I had an idea of what it would look like, since we both kinda worked it out together, but it wasn't what I expected, it was WAY better! Have I mentioned to go check out http://www.rewilson.us ? AND HAVE YOU GONE YET???? :D Maybe it's just seeing my name on it (yeah, I have an ego), but I think it's more to do with how cool it is! I can't wait to see the finished one, looking all slick and shiny...
A few people have asked me why I would have to sell so many books to do the Global Distribution; if it's only $99, and I'm making $14/book, I should barely have to sell 8 copies to make it. The truth is, I'm NOT making $14/book, I'm not making very much at all per copy (I'm not going to say how much, but it's less than you think). Most of the price is the cost of publishing it, which is higher since each copy is manually printed. If I was working with a publishing company I'd be making more per copy, but they tend to not want to publish authors that nobody has heard of. Maybe, if this one does good, someone will want to do my next one! :P
Ok, I think that's it... Until next time!
Sunday, August 13, 2006
Been so tight lipped lately...
OK, time to reveal a little (ok, a lot) more information. The text is almost done. Currently, it's being checked over with a fine toothed comb by a few friends (who are staying anonymous so there are no hard feelings). The poems are all in order (although there might be a few slight changes). As soon as the text is completely finished, I'm going to do some quick formatting (most of it is already set up, I did it while I've been waiting), then that part is done.
I'm not sure how far along the cover is, but I told the cover artist (you all HAVE gone to check out www.rewilson.us, haven't you???) that I would be ready in about a month, so there isn't much pressure on her. This morning I gave her the final calculation on the spine, so she should have all the info that she needs...
The book is 132 pages long, split across three chapters. There are 50 poems total (what a nice number!), some that have been on here, some on my old blog, some only on the forums, and even a few that you have NEVER read before! Even the ones you know have changed a bit, I finally went back and did the minor tweaks that I always put off before.
The final retail price is (wait for it... wait for it!) $13.95 US. I'm not sure what that will convert into for my Candian and overseas friends, but hopefully it will be reasonable. I have spent hours at different bookstores, looking at other people's books, finding ideas for length, formatting, and price, and finally decided on $1/10 pages (seemed to be about average, although some were as low as 50 cents and some were over $2 for 10 pages). The money that goes over the cost of publishing will be used to fund buying an ISBN number, and getting global distribution, so (one day) you'll see it in Barnes and Noble online (and hopefully my local branches too), Amazon, and other online retailers. Global distribution is a one time fee of $99.95, it includes a new ISBN, so y'all have to buy a LOT of books! :)
So... any more questions? :D
I'm not sure how far along the cover is, but I told the cover artist (you all HAVE gone to check out www.rewilson.us, haven't you???) that I would be ready in about a month, so there isn't much pressure on her. This morning I gave her the final calculation on the spine, so she should have all the info that she needs...
The book is 132 pages long, split across three chapters. There are 50 poems total (what a nice number!), some that have been on here, some on my old blog, some only on the forums, and even a few that you have NEVER read before! Even the ones you know have changed a bit, I finally went back and did the minor tweaks that I always put off before.
The final retail price is (wait for it... wait for it!) $13.95 US. I'm not sure what that will convert into for my Candian and overseas friends, but hopefully it will be reasonable. I have spent hours at different bookstores, looking at other people's books, finding ideas for length, formatting, and price, and finally decided on $1/10 pages (seemed to be about average, although some were as low as 50 cents and some were over $2 for 10 pages). The money that goes over the cost of publishing will be used to fund buying an ISBN number, and getting global distribution, so (one day) you'll see it in Barnes and Noble online (and hopefully my local branches too), Amazon, and other online retailers. Global distribution is a one time fee of $99.95, it includes a new ISBN, so y'all have to buy a LOT of books! :)
So... any more questions? :D
Thursday, August 10, 2006
Work work work
Sorry I haven't posted in a while, I've been super busy with the book. Progress: good so far, still a bit to do. I'm not going to be posting any new poetry for a while (saving it all up for the book), so expect just to get progress reports intermittently... :)
Wednesday, August 02, 2006
Changes
Hey all, I've made some changes to my links section: I've separated out the blogs into their own section, added a few more sites, and generally cleaned up the code. I also added a link to my user profile on Digg, so you can see what stories I've been checking out lately....
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