Oopsie!

Accidentally posted some poetry in my side blog, sorry about that! :( Here they all are, at once!

Swan Song Sunrise

One last chance
To write the wrongs
To cleanse my soul
Tonight

One last chance
To wrong the rights
Pull the old hurt out
Tonight

Sunset falls on all of us
But tonight it falls for me
Conceived in sin, destroy within
Swan song sunrise

Cryptic messages
From the heart destroyed
Scattered words scribbled out
Tonight

Looking back
Signed clearly blood
For the ages to see
Tonight

Sunset falls for me tonight
I'll rip the son out of the sky
Night black as my soul tonight
Swan song sunrise

I laughed, I loved
I died inside
A pretty shell for you to enjoy
I wrote, I cried
I bled for you
Tonight I bleed for just myself

Spiraling the drain
The life I cut to shreds
Bloody ribbons on my chest
Tonight

Tonight is all we have left
Tomorrow may not come
Let your light shine through my darkness
Swan song sunrise

Yellow

Staring at an empty yellow wall
It reminds me of the past
Of all the friends I once held close to
All the people that have passed
Into a better life than this one
Can't believe that there is no relief
Here I'm surrounded by the people
Disconnected by their grief

The distance in between us
Is the square of all our pain
Multiplied by our distrusting
To the sum of our disdain
Want to feel connected once again
To the whole of human race
Not another night of loneliness
In this empty yellow space

But now I guess the show's about to start
Turn the stage lights up
Pouring emotion to this yellow wall
Face the apathetic silence

Let the show begin

What Would

What would you do
Where would you go
If you saw the world
Crumbling around you

What would you say
How do you fight
Against the raging
The burning of the night

I stood at the peak
Stared down below
Watched the world
Gently slipping by

Now I remain
But it's not true
Without you here
This world is not my home

Punishment

Punishment

Childish babble flows
Perpetually from this hand
Nothing new, retreaded feelings
Punishment for this puny pride

So tired of trying again
To fall flat on my face
With pen to paper, failing
Just to write

Undeserving of this position
How did the bar get raised so high
Dug my own hole with these hands
To suffer, unable to live up to my image

I don't want to be an angel
I don't want to change the world
I just wanted to write something beautiful
Lay down, breath out, and die

Self

Self

I hate your weakness
The monster you have become
Pick up your feet for once and stand
Quit blaming others for your state
I hate everything you stand for
I hate your self-loathing deprecation
But mostly I hate seeing you
Every morning in my reflection

Untitled

Just a quickie tonight I wrote while thinking of someone very special...

Untitled

You inspire me to greater heights, push me to excel
I want to make you smile for me, to save you from this hell
I burn alive with love for you, consumed within your flame
Embraced within you consciousness, drenched inside your rain
Lay dying arm-in-arm with you, to be reborn by your dawn
Sleep with both eyes open now, just to protect you from harm
I give what I have willingly, against your gifts it is the least
But with my fragile arms around you, I just pray I bring you peace
When you read my words will you understand, the meaning just and true
You will think I wrote it for someone else, but tonight, my love, I write for you

Back With A Vengeance

Well, I took some time off of writing, which is a nice way of saying I've been very uninspired lately. The few things I did try to write were junk, and I finally said to Hell with it, and took a break. I'm glad I did! I went to the bar tonight, and decided to take my notebook and pencil with me (I love writing at the bar). Over the course of two hours (and two beers) I scribbled out SIX new ones, and they aren't too bad either! Hope you enjoy them, I'll try not to be gone for so long again...

Lost

Lost

How do I tell you the feeling deep inside
When the words are sour and ring out hollow
As empty as this lonely night, this wasted life
Can I twist your heart like I used to do

If I show you the empty chairs at Christmas
The places where my friends used to live
The caskets lined and white in my heart
Can you even begin to understand

I try not to complain to you
To whine about the ones I've lost
But over time it all adds up
And it doesn't seem fair tonight

Crystal cold stars to shine down
Unwritten words, uncried tears
Unafraid to face my fate and say
I lived, I loved, and I lost

The Moment Of Shame

The Moment Of Shame

So here I stand
Naked and unashamed
My heart exposed for you to see
Fragile and unafraid
The victim played perfection
Hurt for you and proud
Unable to feel beyond this
The moment of shame

Splash blood against the wall
Battered and unashamed
Emotions exposed for you to feel
Fragile and unafraid
The sad refrain of your happy song
Played in minor key
Unable to see beyond this
The moment of shame

Soul bared for your enjoyment
Naked and ashamed
My heart in your hands to crush
Fragile and afraid
The moment of shame admitting
I was never strong enough
Unable to live beyond this
The moment of my shame